Without You (I Miss You)
By Jean Roy
I try and occupy myself with other things
but my heart knows what my mind isn’t forgetting.
You see, I could play so many roles
and make my feelings so that they never show
and act like I don’t care about you
But the truth is that I’m dying inside,
living my life without you.
I miss you, more than moon light in the morning sky
I miss you, more than the sunny days in July.
I miss you, more than words can express
Hey you, I miss you, I miss you more than how much I’m missing you can get.
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Me singing a cover of time by Neyo.
Horrible quality I apologize. I just couldn’t get this song out of my head.
The Lack Of Words Is What Truly Burns
By Jean Roy
I try and write a song
where the lyrics would change my life
where rhymes and rhythm accompanied by words
that reflect the happiness I sought
would push away the trials
that I fought with on a daily basis.
Some say words burn
but no amount of
written scripture could overturn
the suffrages I endure
living each and every day without you
into a happy ending.
I could sit here and write lyrics
of an untold story of us
Where our dreams could collide
and your hand would always be in mine.
but songs like those would be lies
because for you and I
we have no opportunity for a once upon a time.
We have no way
or I have no way
To make a way
To make you stay
So I write a love song
cold, dead and true
of all the things
I wish you would listen to.
Like…
How much I miss you when you aren’t around
Or how seeing your face just makes me smile
Or How I look at my phone
hoping you’d text or call.
Still knowing but hoping
with no effect on you at all.
Like how my heart beats slow
numbing itself to the pain whenever you have to go.
or how my eyes look away from your face
So that my tears wont leave any effect on your day.
Or how your happiness is always more important than my own
and how I long for your arms to replace the pillow I hold
whenever I am alone.
Or maybe how I wish I could love you
in a way that would make you love me
as blind as the love I give that
you never gave me.
Or how I wish these words I write
Would keep you up at night
But deep down I know
these are just sad love lyrics
they cannot do much to your
heart, mind or feelings
I wanted to write a song
that would change the truth
but instead I answered
all the questions I never was answered by you.
See I may wear
this fragile heart on my sleeve
and write sad songs about you
whenever I can’t sleep
But you will never see the tears
accompanied by the words
You will never understand
What is really means to be hurt
Because the lack of words
is what truly burns.
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So one of my close friend’s Courtney, wrote a song that has some of the words to my poem “True Love Didn’t Have To Hurt” which the original post can be found here.
True Love Didn’t Have To Hurt
By Jean Roy
He had more suits in his closet
than occasions to attend.
Love in his heart,
that he was willing to give out again.
He just wanted a chance
to prove to her
that a love that was true
didn’t have to hurt.
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Caring
By Jean Roy
Caring means hurting and admitting that I am not over the same feelings that I should have left in the past too many months ago. With caring comes tears that flow nonstop down my cheeks leaving stains on my face like the accidental smudges of permanent marker left on hands of those who are not careful enough to be aware that sometimes things aren’t easily removed with just some soap and water. I tried to stop caring but the lies that I fed my mind never seemed to reach the deep caverns of my heart because the idea that maybe one day you would actually feel something for me, left me up in cloud nine as the others 8,7,6,5 ,4, 3, 2 and so on were slowly dissipating away. The caring for you I tried to leave on hold, because no matter the time spent listening to cheesy music that plays in the background, someone eventually answers your call, making the wait worthwhile. I spend nights fighting with myself and am left with bruises on my knees for each and every night I pray for hours that I would too get a chance at peace. But with caring I’m left with the question that I already know the answer to. So I return my humble heart to the constant struggle of loving you, and caring for you, knowing this caring does me no good but emphasize you, the hurt I go through and how badly I wish you knew of this truth and, how badly I wish you cared about me too.
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Sorry for the horrible sound quality. I was using the microphone on my headphones.
Lyrics
I Must Confess
By Jean Roy
I must confess
I miss you more than
I ever expected
I’m here alone in my own mess
Hoping a day would come where where I’d love you less
I no longer cry at night, I guess
I’m slowly making progress
But I know losing love for you, will be a lengthy process
My heart is sending out an SOS
I just want to end all of this
and get it off my chest
I’m just tried of being depressed
Pain inside caving at the depths
of memories of you, that I just can’t forget.
Heartbreak can’t be any worst than this
Let my heart rest
for you never had a reason to protect
The love we invested in
I must confess
I miss you more than
I ever expected
But losing you to him
Won’t be something I can accept
I must confess
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