Fathers Biggest Fear
Fathers Biggest Fear By Jean Roy I am what my father had feared. I am an extremely sensitive, art driven, dreamer boy who hates cars sucks cock and has no interest in sports. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
I have lost myself trying to find you.
I have this horrible stalker. This dude follows me everywhere, even to the bathroom. He is one of those annoying faggy gays that just wont take no for an answer. I am really contemplating on pepper spraying him. Today, it was like everywhere I turned he was there with his ever so annoying “Hi darling boo” and he gives me this ugly grin and he waves his hand like its on fire. I cannot...
The thing about expectations is most of the time, someone else sets them for you. Yet you feel like they’ve been there all along. And you can’t wait to live up to them. But just because you know what’s expected of you doesn’t mean you still can’t surprise everyone.
Daily Confession: September 29th 2011
I want to ask him out, I want to tell him that I want to make him smile for more than the few stolen moments we have between classes,and possibly more. But all I do is sit there grinning just looking at him as he regards me with the same attention he gives his friends and nothing more. No one I like ever likes me the same way back. =/ Or at least not for long.
Heartbreak Aplenty By Jean Roy This life is filled with heart break aplenty. Happy days filled with love, not very many. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Nothing stays hidden for long.
Meaningless Words By Jean Roy Your “I love you’s” were as reliable as your last ten promises. They are just words without meaning. Please refrain from speaking. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Life Lessons From A Slinky
Life Lessons From A Slinky By Jean Roy I learned more life lessons from a childhood toy that I ever did from my parents. Fearlessly facing the next step as it approaches, I wished I was more like the slinky that I would play with whenever I was alone. Pain was not undefeatable. I just needed the courage to take life one step at a time. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
My Mother, The Silver Angel
My Mother, The Silver Angel By Jean Roy You are now just one of the many silver angels patiently waiting for the frosted wings that will allow you to watch over me and dad. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
I'll believe anything you say if it's with a...
I want a guy that can make me laugh...
…just not when he drops his pants.
Putting On A Brave Face
Putting On A Brave Face By Jean Roy I sit here looking in the mirror trying to put on a brave face. When will all of this heartbreak finally just go away? Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Lies I Wish You'd Question
I say I’m doing fine, but we both know that’s a lie.
Numbing The Pain
Numbing The Pain By Jean Roy No matter how I try and block it Its getting pretty obvious that the sun isn’t the reason why I have sunglasses on my eyes. This hurt, is getting harder to disguise. Though the rain had fell today, these tears already had been falling down face. I wish I could hide this broken heart, but numbing the pain, is so damn hard. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Our love is out of tune like our hearts are...
Everything But Beautiful
Everything But Beautiful By Jean Roy I know that I am not beautiful, But I can offer you what good looks can never buy you. All I’m asking is for a chance. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Happy Birthday Katy
Happy Birthday Katy By Jean Roy You are the web weaver of words and worlds paralleled from bricks and steel. You were placed in this world to express the translucent throbbing of your heart and mind. In turn you inspire those like me, who wish that one day; your profound wisdom can be the positive fuel that will devour all pain. So many, like myself, have become blessed with the beauty of your...
Happy Birthday Solange
Happy Birthday Solange By Jean Roy Paradise granted the world the ability to experience the type of joys that only you know how to give. You were given the chance to thrive and bless us all with the magnificence only you can offer the world. Our sunny skies filled with deep rich hues of blues and whites made way for such a beautiful being to be born on this day. The daughter of autumn and...
Having my back doesn't mean hiding behind me when...
Loving Me Is Useless
Loving Me Is Useless By Jean Roy Don’t fall for me I beg you please. See my heart, is broken beyond repair But I know you don’t care. You see me smiling back at you. If only, If only you really knew What this heart of mine has felt Then you’d run your silly love filled head, to someone else. See these eyes I’m a master of hiding my cries. See this smile, on my face. I’ve perfected it, to mislead...
These tears annoy me.
Why can’t I ever wake up without this leeching hurt that seems to infect any form of happiness I try to keep safe within myself?
Daily Confession: September 28th 2011
I want the world to stop spinning so I can jump off and end this silly life of mine.
The Void By Jean Roy Our past had destroyed any hope that we had of creating a future together. See I’m tired of trying to find these pieces of my heart while you’re too lazy to put it back together. We remain a puzzle unsolved. It’s both our faults, we’re both wrong about the other. I love more and you love less There is no way for us to settle this. We keep trying to place pieces where they...
I Fall Too Fast -_-
But your hugs are amazing and the way you smell leaves me in like a trance. You, You, Oh You. I was tempted to grab you and kiss you but being the coward I am, I decided against it. A part of me knows that I will never be the cutest boy you will ever be with or have ever been with. I don’t have a six pack or a nice body, my teeth are horrible and my skin is pretty average. My hair looks...
Person1: Its cold.
Person 2: I hate school
Person3: Its packed in here.
Me: So I bet you are all wondering why I gathered you here?
Person3: LOL Wtf?
Me: You can't tell anyone about this mission.
Person 2: Gets off on floor 2 to avoid me.
Person1: Continues to listen to me.
Weird Troll Person
Troll: Umm Can I ask you a question?
Me: You already did. Times up. I gotta go. Bye. *STARTS WALKING FAST*
The economy is so bad right now that even emos are...
Releasing My Frustration
Releasing My Frustration By Jean Roy My Therapist did not understand me when I said that I desperately needed to release my frustration wisely. I wanted angry sex not a bottle of pills. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
If you get sexted by someone you don't like...does...
Starving Artists By Jean Roy We were the poster children for starving artists. We had too many bowls of ramen noodles, a two dollar guitar and a one million dollar song fueled on pipe dreams and an unending hunger for the best meal good music can buy. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
When you can’t feel a thing, it becomes easy pretending that just existing is better than actually living. I am far to numb to all this hurt, all this bullshit that you keep throwing my way. I have to force myself to be okay because streams of tears are far more of a burden than the fake smile I have perfected in the last couple weeks.
I did not give myself these bruises, Dad.
Far Out Of Reach
Far Out Of Reach By Jean Roy I told him to aim for the stars because my heart was far out of reach. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
October By Jean Roy Our trees bleed into October. Memories of summer are long gone. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Weak By Jean Roy Love this involved, this difficult to enjoy, is leaving me vulnerable and weak hearted. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Locked Away Thoughts Escaping
Locked Away Thoughts Escaping By Jean Roy The lock to my heart is broken. My fingers still bleed, for I am gripping my pencil far too tight. These words are swiftly flying out my mind to the yellow pad on my lap in smoke clouds of emotions I am not willing to admit to, and the only chance of ever capturing these feelings is the invisible net you had stolen from me back in the fourth...
Sugar Daddy By Jean Roy It had turned out that although he had tons of money and a mouth watering inheritance, my “daddy” was sugar-free from his type 2 diabetes. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
My Stomach Is Rumbling...
I haven’t eaten in about three days aside from the occasional candy bar at school. It feels so nice being deprived of food. My body is changing slowly but surely.
Daily Confession: September 27th 2011
You and I are a pile of unfinished business.
Tough Stains By Jean Roy I had eaten my Hershey’s Kisses over his sad dead body. Fresh blood and chocolate are such tough stains. I seal this deed with a kiss on his cheek. His demise is so much sweeter than this candy will ever be. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Obama's Plan For CHANGE
Obama’s Plan For CHANGE By Jean Roy The sad part about living in America is that Facebook has made more drastic changes than Obama has ever done. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Roses are red. Violets are blue.
I’m sleeping with other people, So should you.
Past Love Shadows
Past Love Shadows By Jean Roy Our former love has been shadowing me,trying to get me to fall for you and all of those lies you would always feed to me. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Fall Kisses By Jean Roy Our summer kisses have become increasingly cold during the fall. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Do You Think About Me Still?
Do You Think About Me Still? By Jean Roy Remember when you had promised me forever? Remember when words used to make me feel better? Remember when you had put my heart to rest? Remember when I loved you more,while you still cared much less? Do you think about me still? Do you live with any guilt? Do you have any remorse for the burnt bridges I can no longer rebuild? The hurt you gave me, do you...
Thin Line Between Love And Hate
Thin Line Between Love And Hate By Jean Roy They say that there is only a thin line between love and hate. We snipped the thread effortlessly when our lips decided to touch. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
Ouch It Hurts!
Him: Babe, is it in?
Him: Is it still hurting?
Him: Let me try to put it in slowly.
Me: Ouch, it still hurts!
Him: Ok, let's get you a bandaid and another shoe size.
I GAVE HIM THE LETTER
AHHH. My heart was racing. Idk what he is going to say but AHH.
Halloween Costume Ideas
Crush: What should I be for Halloween?
Me: *Says under my breath* My boyfriend.