May 2011
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Theo If You Don't Get Inside...
This lady on my block has been calling for “Theo” for the last ten minutes.
Here is a tip Theo, if you don’t get in the house, your mother is going to beat your ass in front of all your little friends.
Do you want to be the talk of the school, come Monday morning?
I didn’t think so.
Get your ass inside.
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Never apologize for being yourself and never...
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Done!
I am so fucking done playing this back and forth love game with you.
You know how deeply I feel for you but that does not give you any right to treat me less than a human being.
Stop playing with my fucking feelings.
You say you love me one minute and then act as if I am nothing the next.
The moment I give up in trying is when you decide you want to try with me.
I guess it is true what they...
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Spell
Spell By Jean Roy Tear stains down my face These thoughts I wish to erase Please, make this spell work Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
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New Name
New Name By Jean Roy
My dad knows me as “Stupid Sissy Girl Faggot” That was my new name. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
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Affair
Affair By Jean Roy
You were too busy with your secretary to notice mom was dying. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
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Unhealthy
I’m done I’m tired of the same routine of you always hurting me. Me putting all the work in Trying to accommodate your needs This love just isn’t healthy.
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5:10 In The Morning
5:10 In The Morning by Jean Roy its 5:10 in the morning and I haven’t slept all night long my radio on repeat to the same sad love song its 5:10 in the morning and I ask myself why did you leave pieces of my heart on the floor how can you go on each day as if you don’t love me anymore its 5:10 in the morning and more tears fall down my face not including those which in past hours...
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Wendys
Leaving some of the skin on your potatoes should be considered lazy not innovative. You don’t fool me wendys. Your fries are not the “best”.
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Relationships Kill Everything
Relationships Kill Everything By Jean Roy
You were much nicer When we were just friends and we were not dating yet.
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MEN
I’ve had many men in my life. Some like my father left me abandoned with no chance for stability. Others like Tomas, arrived and only stayed in my life for one thing. Once their mission was complete, they left my life the same way they came in; as Assholes. Then there were the guys that were unsure of what they wanted in me or in their own lives. The guys, who like my mother’s boyfriends, would...
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Six Word Saturday
Dad, you never did come back.
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Supressed Emotions
Its closer to May than it was yesterday. I guess time flies when you are having fun. I wish that was the case for me. I want nothing more than to be able to tell you that I have this amazing life filled with all the joys that the typical college student is ensured, but like they say, there are always exceptions in many cases. I keep thinking about my past as it haunts me day in and day out. You...
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Being Featured
So yeah my poem “More Than Just Your Friend” was featured in the #Poetry Category. I will have you all know that I screamed like a little school girl for about 25 minutes. I am honored and greatful. I want each and every one of you to know that I Love You.
No seriously I do from all the depths of my soul. You all are the reasons as to why I write and will continue to write.
There is...
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Love's Song
Love’s Song By Jean Roy
Like an ever constant song, Your hearts sweet melody Was the rhythmic life force That I needed to leave behind All the doubts that I had conceived After the last love proved To be such a waste of time. You are the whispered truth of goodness That I needed to brighten the darkness That love had once engulfed me in. Your heart’s the pathway song that leads me to...
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Sticks And Stones
Sticks And Stones by Jean Roy ….Sticks And Stones May Break Your Bones ….But Words Can Never Hurt You I wonder if that saying was fact or fiction myth or a painful reality I was always unsure of the answer until it happened to me they say words can’t hurt you but in reality they can they dominate your emotions yet no one understands it all started when my mom separated my dad and he started using...
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More Than Just Your Friend
More Than Just Your Friend By Jean Roy I want to be the one you wake up to every morning And the one you kiss goodnight The one who gives you fair warning When things don’t seem to be going right I want to be the one who kisses you And the one who gives you hugs I want to be the boy who misses you And the boy you can’t stand to love The one who dries your tears And protects you The one who stays...
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Love Isn’t For Me
Love Isn’t For Me By Jean Roy
I’ve gone through so many changes my life has gone through different stages
I’ve been in and out of love my heart hates that four letter word which it wants nothing a part of
I’ve cried so much because I’ve just been hurt and used he said he loved me and now I’m here just left confused
Should I trust another with my heart or will he be like the others and tear it...
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Cliché
Cliché By Jean Roy Like all great cliches,
it was raining as he walked away.
I was stripped of a boyfriend
and a backstabbing best friend who now has him.
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Deadly Beautiful
I figured out my mother was dying when she stopped wearing earrings. She no longer felt beautiful enough to enjoy the life she loved so much, that was coming to an end. She battled with liver disease for most of my childhood and her adult life. I guess she was tired of fighting, and never being able to win the battle. I hope she knew that she was one of the most beautiful women to me and my dad...
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Brain Aneurysm
Seeing him so weak, messed with my heart more than any break up ever could. As I held his hand, I constantly would tell him how much I loved him. I knew that it wasn’t much longer until I had to leave to go to work. Where did my healthy, always upbeat dad go? I didn’t want to leave his side, but I knew I soon had to go. I wanted nothing more than for him to be ok. I looked at him with tears...
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Lies
Lies By Jean Roy Chemotherapy, You were supposed to help mom. You made her much worst. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
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Lovingly Beaten
These bruises on my face are from the man I love. You may call me weak for staying with such a man who lays his hands on me. You may call it love under false pretenses and that I need to get help to escape the situation that I have put myself in. You may believe that it will only get worst over time, and I can assure you that it already has. You may think that one day when he goes too far, there...
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Lost Virginity
I wanted it to be special. Was that so wrong? I didn’t want It to happen how it happened for my friends; in a hurry and a mess, meaningless body and soul interaction with the simple intention of someone getting themselves off. When I met Tomas, I thought that he was the one. Although, fifteen at the time, I had no clue how naïve I was being. All I knew was that I loved him and it had already been...
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Royal Wedding
The bride is to be the only one to
wear white on her special day.
Her sister was such a jealous bitch
that she didn’t marry wealthy,
she had to overshadow her sister
and wear a white gown to the wedding.
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Charmed
Charmed By Jean Roy The power of three had set us free, but not from demons. We were charmed.
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Mind Powers
Mind Powers By Jean Roy Telepathically, I tried to have you notice me. It did not work
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Drugs
Cocaine.
Because I’d rather be thin than be on marijuana where I am left hungry all the time.
Logic.
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New York
I came here leaving my past behind. I wanted to do music and act and become a star. With a job paying less than minimum wage, and often days left with no money to eat or pay the rent, I found it hard to survive. I left home in hope of a miracle but came back with tear stained pillow cases. New York wasn’t everything I hoped it would be.
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Daily Confession: April 29th 2011
I look at his Facebook profile everyday and pretend that he is still the him that I once called mine and I am the one he chose. Sadly, believing in lies doesn’t make them any more true. Nothing hurts more than seeing someone happy with their first choice, while you were strung along for so long to be the second.
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Royally Divorced
Royally Divorced By Jean Roy In two years time, their divorce will be the highlight of the century. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
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Disney
OK, so just how big is this vault of Disney’s? How many movies do they have hidden in there?
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Little Brother
I love you but sometimes I feel like you are a spy for the American government.
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Nothing
Nothing by Jean Roy
You told me you loved me I thought it was true But now I’m sitting here Wondering why I wasted all this time believing in you “For you I’d be the perfect guy”, you said So I gave you my heart And all you did to it Was tear it apart Three years of nothing How could this be We were meant for each other I guess that you couldn’t see
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Number Two
Number Two by Jean Roy
You got out of a relationship, and said with him you were through So I fought with myself if I should start to talk to you
The feelings came fast and love rushed inside my veins Leaving my heart content and leaving my mind insane
It started with conversations over AIM Your sweet words impacted me and my life suddenly changed
Late nights on the phone ...
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Texting
Texting By Jean Roy I hate it when I text someone back and they don’t respond as quickly. Copyright 2011 All Rights Reserved
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Prince Charming
Prince Charming by Jean Roy
All my life I’ve dreamt about my prince charming Who’d save me From all those who wished harm on me
He made me a promise Concerning both our lives That he’d protect me Till the day he dies
And I trusted Each and every word Never thinking That I’d get hurt
Stupid me I believed in his fairytale And I thought I knew my prince Oh so very well
Now my fairy...
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Your Regret
I told you, one day you would regret breaking it off. Letting me go was your loss. Today as you saw me with someone else in love. I could see the pain on your face. I’m so fucking glad it hurts you the way that it does.
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“Throwing away all the gifts you got me. But in the present I’m so much wrapped...”
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Three Year Anniversary
Today on our three year anniversary, I expected a little more than a simple phone call telling me to be ready by 7:30.I knew you had been planning something secretive for weeks so I guess you were a bit anxious as was I. I was beyond excited. After work, I picked up your favorite bottle of wine and headed to game stop to pre order Gears of War 3 for you before arriving home. As I arrived home, I...
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Domestic Abuse
Domestic Abuse By Jean Roy As I watched from my room, my dad beating my mum I so hated him.
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Goodnight Mom
I shall now travel a short distance to my bed to escape into the only paralleled universe where you are still alive, we have a physical relationship and I am not blaming myself for your death. I hope wherever you are mom you know that I shouldn’t have been the one they saved the day of my birth. I’d much rather have had you lived. Not knowing you hurts. Knowing you sacrificed your life...
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Virgin
They all wondered, why after we ended things, I remained so introverted.
Sadly I didn’t want to admit that before him, my heart was a virgin.
I was naive to how bad love could leave a burden
Of a relationship that was not even worth it.
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Popularity And Queer Dungeon And Dragons
Growing up, I would always talk about being a king of the castle and that I wanted you to be my best mate, always and forever. You agreed as we fought off imaginary dragons and trolls trying to invade the sacred space we had created. I miss when things were simple and you weren’t so scared to be who you were. See, I guess that is what happens to some of us. We end up so conformed, wanting to...
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A Constant Reminder Of My Loss
I looked up and suddenly start reminiscing on the past triggered by a sweet sinful fragrance. At least once a week during my 3 o’clock Algebra class, the girls who sit behind me pass around a bottle of the coconut lotion that you would wear and had me once so used to. Every time I try to do my class work, I am always distracted by how much I miss you and how badly I wish you were still here....
