www.jeanroydesigns.com

I know you don’t doubt my love
but I know there are days I make you wonder.
Just know that I write about it all the time. 

I’d really like it if you all could visit my Design Portfolio

and then give me some feedback on it. I’d really appreciate it.

http://jeanroydesigns.com/

Feedback: http://thinkmestrange.tumblr.com/ask

Thank you so much in advanced. :)

Its so hott here in new jersey.

Ive been naked for an hour eating ice pops.
What has my life become?

Head so good make you want to pay tuition.

I’ll still be yours

…even when I no longer mean anything to you.

When he isn’t here my heart twinges with a longing
that is too painful to even verbalize.

Never understimate your power to make someone’s day special.

:)

Beneath The Aching Heart In Her Chest

Beneath the aching heart in her chest

lays the dormant soul of a poor girl put to rest.

repulsed by what she sees in her reflection

as her fingertips tip toe over each of her imperfections

that she so badly wants corrected

because God don’t like ugly, or flawed complexions

and she needs to be beautiful, in order to get to heaven

so she curses her blessings

and diminishes her imperfections

with hair bleach, contacts and cosmetics

because at sixteen, she will no longer be rejected

by the same boys that teased her since she was seven

this time her body was no longer a gift but her weapon 

showcasing herself with short skirts and flaunted midsection

in the pursuit of perfection

lays the stolen soul of a poor girl put to rest

by a man twice her age who only wanted her for sex.

I find myself looking for autumn leaves
in the inervening months when summer weather is still  more like spring
and the laughing chatter of butterfly wings
cause me to reminsce on a much simpler time
where I could fill a notebook
with a rhapsody of emotion
intead of burrowing my face
into a pillow inhabited by pools
of wanted attention
I effortlessly let stream down my cheeks but
never letting escape from my lips.

Happy Birthday to my boyfrienddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

Throw it up
Throw it up.

On a better note my boyfriend is turning 21 years old in a few minutes.

:)
YEY 

Today was the day from hell. 

Heading to school. blah. Gotta ge this finacial aid stuff situated then to make some money. 

Anyone want to talk to me?
My skype is THINKMESTRANGE
Lets chat. We don’t have to webcam.
Add me.